why do I do this to myself?

Have you ever seen someone and was instantly attracted to them, but then never thought about it further? And then that person and you meet and the attraction level sky rockets? How about when you have sex with that person and that person does everything that you LOVE without even telling that person and it seems as though you two just mesh together? Or when he wraps his arms around you and you've never felt more beautiful than right there in that moment? And when the sun rises and you part ways, you get slightly bummed at the thought you might never see him again? And when, by chance, you two meet again you feel like you are the worlds hottest supermodel and you talk for hours and feel so intelligent and everything seems to be falling into place?

What do you do when you think you are falling for someone? Because right now I can not get Joey off my mind and the anticipation of me seeing him again is overwhelming. I want to be back in his arms, I want to wake up next to him like I did this weekend, I want to cook breakfast in our underwear. What have I gotten myself into, Im falling hard and fast for a man whom I envisioned would be a one night stand....this isn't supposed to happen, especially when now it isnt a one night stand.

This happened last weekend.

So i had a can of diet coke on me because my blood sugar was so high it wasnt reading and i needed to keep fluids in me. we are on our way walking toward the concert (chevelle was going to be there) and the security guy wont let me up because I have a can of coke and it is a Pepsi sponsored event. So I start argueing that I will not throw it out because I need it and if they really want to stop me, go buy me a can of diet pepsi....they said no. I then explane that Im diabetic and I need it, they guy says no. At this point im causing a huge scene and he gets his supervisor OVER A FUCKIN CAN OF DIET COKE! I even lift up my shirt to show them my gross fat stomach to show them the port for my pump and I dangle my medical ID in their faces. They still give me a hard time. So I told them that I will just sue their security company because its a medical liability and seeing my coach purge (which was a gift, lol) they probably see I have money and Told me that I have to smuggle it in. so my friend scott sticks it in his shorts pocket and the guy says if i get caught he didnt tell me to do that. 25 minutes later we get up there, the blood sugar still isnt reading, so I change the pump site and then go behind the porta johns and chug it, stick it under a japanese memorial sign, take pictures of it, and we go about our day.